Debt.

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Feeling so weary and broken
I feel like I'm in a hole... Buried
Pressed on all sides
Tired! Literally
The debt is overwhelming
And so are my emotions 
I can't keep up 
One minute I'm angry
And then I really don't think I should be
And then I feel Iike a fool
Like I've been played 
But is that really so?

You told me you wouldn't put me to shame. 
Told me to not see the debt as another's but mine. 
This way, it'd be easier to bear.
These words I've hung on to
Tbh, some days are easier than others
On some days, I absolutely trust
Other days I can't help but feel like a fool
I mean how did sth that was literally me helping out turn into my debt?
Empty promises upon empty promises 
I just want to scream sometimes.... 

The weight of guilt
From betraying family
From watching mom cry
Getting blocked and questioned
Feeling betrayed even though I shouldn't... 
I honestly cannot keep up with my emotions

My heart is weary
But I choose to trust you. 
I choose to see that more than all these, You are.. 

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