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Boundaries.

"W e had the experience but missed the meaning. And the approach to the meaning restored the experience in another form" T.S Eliot. "Don't assume you've learnt a lesson until the test is restored... The test will come again. It will." Olu walonimi 2020 Your processes are tough Yet full of love For you don't stop till we really see what you're saying and then it changes us. Once, through mamora I thought that boundary would mean don't touch or have sex You brought shittu, heck! I still didn't get it- the attitude was you can come in but I'm not hanging legs. Yet it hurt. It did. Distance might have been the haven in mamora and shittu But what about the brother? What do I do with him? This feels like the lesson proper. Hurts, yet interesting... I've become a wreck but really what did I expect? Who will save me from this body of death? Lord, I've fucked up again, as always Please help me. Please This battle is real D...

Fix me...

Don't look at me like that.... Well, yea I know I rant a lot And I'm mostly incoherent I mean one minute I'm saying what the heck is 'close-up' all about, The next minute I'm saying please show me how SIN is at work in me And oh, how the fuck will I make sense of all these? I also know that you see everything; Oh, I know that you know even what I'm yet to say You see my excesses My worries and fears My doubts My questionsssssssssss...... My strength My weakness You see it all The vilest of me. So, fix me I pray Help me That my life be solely for you, in you, through you. Help my heart. Show me how to walk, talk, live, love, see Please fix me