Find Contentment.

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It's been a ride. Through and through.
And I'm learning to find Contentment. 
Now, more than ever.
What do you do when answers to the prayers of yesterday seem like the curse of today?
When you have so/too much of what you've always wished for, and it feels like a spell? 

Seemingly relegated.
Stuck with the kids, 
Every time I lift Eniiyi and his incessant wails
Every time I have to attend to Nimi and his whimpers. 
The chores
The sacrifice 
The rote
The denial of mobility...

there comes the feeling
That I'm probably missing out on something. A lot of things. 
Really though, this life is opposed to what? 
The bustle, hustle, vibes and bubble bursted by uncertainty and unfulfillment... 

But I'm reminded of when I wanted to be this close to this thing
When I hoped really to do the laundry, dishes and the likes... 
When I yearned for the time
This is it. What I prayed for. 
It's here, and I'm taking it all. All. Everything that comes with it. 
Cos it a phase, it will pass, and I don't want to miss it when it does. 
So I find Contentment. The grass is green here, and there. 
So wherever I am, what ever I find my hands doing, I'd do with all my heart. 
This is my grass. And it just as green. 


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