Joy over happiness.

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You..
Like wind, you breezed in
Besetting...
Your vulnerability and honesty
Your mind and skill
You spelt out your intention and fears
I saw it, oh I did.
Willfully and stupidly, I fell
Because, well.... emotions- sometimes I still wonder why it exists.
I let open some of my doors
I toyed and enjoyed the moment
Emotions speaking louder than caution
And now, the upshot I face- This, I'm not happy about.

But I've joy
Unspeakable
Even if you are reaffirming your doubts
And my fingers are burnt
I have joy that's not dependent on you
You have thought me,
Through you I see love in me- not the one you professed
Never knew I had this much
But really, I have no choice
I am loved the same way
The love reaches down to who I am and can be
I see me becoming Him.
My joy knows no bounds, seeing I can offer the same.
But I'm afraid, you'd have to call for help- No discounts!
I'm not bittered
I'm joyful and more joyful that I am not.
Oh this love! This love!!
It doesn't matter what you do or do not do
It reaches down to who you are
It's the source of my joy
This love is God.

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